This song is making me smile this week…
This isn’t the first weight loss related blog post I’ve written… I’ll bet it won’t be the last either. But with everything that has been going on just recently I’m finding it SO hard to keep going on my weight loss journey. As I write, the Cadbury brownie bites that I buy to factor into my syns are calling me from the fridge and I am willing myself to ignore them.
4 pounds has crept back on in the past 3 weeks mainly onto my belly and bottom. I know what you’re thinking… THAT QUICKLY? And the answer is YES… I knew it wouldn’t be good last weekend when my jeans felt super snug.
I’ve had surgery recently, this is true, so I have been skipping the gym… but my healthy eating habits have flown out of the window too. I desperately don’t want to put the weight on that I’ve lost. I’ve worked so hard and have invested so much time (and money) into helping myself feel happier about how I look.
Those of you that know me will know that I have dedicated Monday nights to ‘going to fat club’. I’m not a target member by any means and I’ve been going to group now for just over 12 months. I’ve lost two stones (28 pounds) by my reckoning – in and out of class – steadily and have on the whole kept it off over holidays, birthdays, Christmas etc, until now.
Maybe I’m bored? Maybe it’s the 12 month itch? Or maybe I’m just complacent…? I’ve very nearly been close to target SO many times but keep self sabotaging. I wish I knew why.
I’ve always been ‘chubby’ as an adult. It did bother me growing from a svelte teen to a chunky grown up – but I was a dancer and was always slim until I stopped at 17. By the time I graduated from Uni at age 21 I was a size 16 and was unhappy about it – but never did anything about it! All I know is that I hate the way I look on my wedding pictures and it will always be a massive regret of mine.
Unfortunately I don’t seem to regret it enough to be able to stay away from chocolate hobnobs… Anyway, I’ve spent the last decade of my life unintentionally yoyo-ing in dress size from a 16 to a 12 to an 18 and back again.
I have blamed so many factors for my size and weight and my unhappiness surrounding them. The fact that I was an 80’s child who grew up with working parents in the generation of the microwave oven. We lived on micro pizzas, chips and minute steaks as teens. I left home able to cook very little. I went to university and drank pints of snake bite because that is what you did when you were a student. Hormones. Metabolism. The way I hold my face… All reasons *in my head* why I was over weight.
When in reality all I have ever needed to do to make myself feel better about myself was think about what I was eating and move more.
In 2011 I saw photos of myself getting ready for a Christmas party and at a New Years Eve party and decided that enough was enough. I joined the gym. I went religiously to the gym and to classes, three times per week until I fell pregnant with my daughter in 2013.
I was 11 stone 11 pounds at my booking in appointment for my pregnancy. I weigh less than this now (with a lot less effort) with around 70% of the thanks going to my better eating habits.
I stopped going to high impact gym classes during pregnancy, as I was told to rest due to slight complications. I went to yoga – but gave up once Little Miss arrived.
After Little Miss Vista was born I didn’t go back to the gym. Which would have been fine if I had changed any of my eating habits back in 2011. But I always found that the exercise allowed me to eat whatever I liked to maintain a size 14 – 16. 2015 saw me balloon to a size 18 without even noticing because I ate too much of whatever I wanted and didn’t exercise. At all.
So now I am at logger heads with myself.
How do I get myself out of this slump?
I am trying to follow my own advice, but mainly I have been:
Journaling – If it passes my lips I write it down. Drinks included.
Syns counter – I’m writing my totals down at the end of the night.
Speedy – I’ve been having at least one speed food with every meal. Even snacks!
SP – Tomorrow will be an SP day, that means eating only speed and protein foods with healthy extras.
Water – Clearing out my system and cleansing my skin from inside too.
I’m hoping this will be enough to get those 4 pounds off and start again from where I was!
How do you kick-start your weight loss when you’re in a slump?
Thanks for reading: Mama Do The SLUMP…